i finish ASs TODAY(!!) & so i should be able to write more!
i have to go revise... ill speak soon hopefully, stuff has changed.. so yeah!
i miss my little journal(:
hey i haven't posted since like..december. and it's now the start of january... not too bad, considering, haha.
i dont really know what to seay.
Happy New Year, i guess! :'D
my birthday is soon, jan 17th for anyone wondering.. (;
...bc it's all i can think of at the moment.
living, breathing harry potter!
all i've been focusing on the past week and probs the whole of this week too will be HP haha.
now, just realised that this could be in a way a sort of depressing post!
but idc tbh rn...
now i have read all the books, and all the movies are finished and seen them, i am going to (well obvs the books,
as they finished a timee ago,) anyway, i am going to kinda nitpick the movies, lol.
i might edit this in the future/soon as i am going to watch DH pt2 for the second time later, so will have more of a
judgement on that (:
these books are, as i've heard and i think they are supposed to be, are apparently one of the most faithful adaptations
of books turned into films.
now, i'm not like... idk a film critic who compares movies and the original books down to a T but i don't know if i agree
with that.. also, i don't have that much of a clue how literal that is supposed to be.
i suppose you could say.. and well. i think i have a lot of regrets..
i can't choose a biggest one. god that sounds lame/sad.
i suppose breaking my ankle back in april.
this is going to be a long and depressing answer..
straight up answer to the q, well.. both, really.
yes i've learnt from it, nearly 3 months later, but it still plagues me.
can it be both at the same time, lol?
i don't know how long it's going to be for it to stop getting to me, but i guess that's just the way i am.
i think of it as 'then' and 'now' and that's really depressing me and gets me down.
obviously, everythings getting heaps better., it just feels as if it will never get back to what it was..
it is probably one of the worst things to have happened to me; if not the worst.
i have learnt from in it ways that have made me, in a way, not as good as before, for example; even more risk free.
like, before, i hardly took any risks; now, im probably not going to take any.
and it's not healthy to do that.
hopefully, in a few weeks, or months things will have slotted back into place but atm i am just living every day really..
FOR YT VLOGS...
philosopher's stone 1997 - APPROX AGES - 2
chamber of secrets 1998 - 3
prisoner of azkaban 1999 - 4
goblet of fire 2000 - 5
order of the phoenix 2003 - 8
half blood prince 2005 - 10
deathly hallows 2007 - 12
philosopher's stone 2001 - 6
chamber of secrets 2002 - 7
prisoner of azkaban 2004 - 9
goblet of fire 2005 - 10
order of the phoenix 2007 - 12
half blood prince 2009 - 14
deathly hallows pt 1 2010 - 15
deathly hallows pt 2 2011 - 16
in the title bar it says screwing up. well, i am too. blackberrys do my head in. the little noise. also, that little noise signifies, that i have not, in fact, got a nice little message, but the horrible, aggravating, just revolting thing called the BROADCAST.
i have been getting so many. i added a massive bunch of people which brought my contacts up to like 50. and then i had to delete a bunch of people because ALL.THEY.DID was broadcast me. jesus, get a life?! it's almost as bad as those chain mails that are on the internet. it's seeping into EVERY ASPECT OF TECHNOLOGY, and it needs to kindly gtfo. i just can't stand the crap.
some of it is like 'if you dont bc this you ARE SICK' and shit. no, im not, i just dont like that crap coming through all hours of the day.
also, damned annoying; 'SFTBC' my ass are you! sftbc if anyone... I CAN'T........ !
anyway, that wasn't what i mean to rant on about ahha. /csb... my blackberry just seems pretty screwed. yesterday hardly anything worked, the internet didn't work, or any apps, (even though all wifi was on, connected to the router etc..) and it said all my bbms were 'delivered' (D) but apparently they didn't get 'read' (R) so how does that work? ergh. seems bbms are back to normal today, and texts.. but internet not! /: ugh so infuriating as ive only had the phone a couple of months. pretty ridic..
prom is on friday. i went searching for a clutch bag/bag yesterday and found one in new look! it's gorg, sparkly silver but tiny! tbh im not going to be carrying hardly anything so i think it's fine. i still had a massive dilemma about shoes. right, shoes. all this ankle business. i went shopping for shoes like a couple weeks ago say a month, any my ankle was almost ok, and i thought, it'll be alright, ill just have to practise a lot. fast forward to a couple weeks later, and the physio says i should wear them, (in so many words..) well she said "i cant say yes" which was a pretty dumbfuck thing to say imo. /: so i was all :( but then i thought, fuck it, what the hell am i going to do i can't go... you see my dress has been modified bc it was waaay too long with AND without heels. (the heels i bought were like 11cm heels!) and theyre friggin gorgeous... but i decided i couldnt wear them. too risky tbh.
so id already bought a pair of.. (pretty low, imo but my mom thinks they are a big heel haha.. i guess they are) espadrille wedges.. like, nothing fancy at all, just some pretty shoes you would wear in the daytime. (what i was planning to wear them for - summer holiday..) but then i thought, they are more stable than the thin (almost stilletto-like) heels and lower so wear them. all set to wear them (even though they are not completely ideal as they still slope pretty much a lot and thats putting my foot in a strange position..) and yeah. practised and im okay.
so yesterday went to get the clutch bag and i saw these shoes! (backstory.. few days ago id had a brainwave whilst in bed - ik what youre thinking..- and.. FLATFORMS! i thought, YES, these shoes are the PERFECT idea! they give you height but are basically flat, so won't fall over! yeah, easier said than done. couldnt find any in any localish shops.. topshop they would have done, -weren't perfect flat- but were like 130£/$ and sold out..... found prospects on ebay and amazon but they were from overseas and stuff and wouldve taken 5-7 days.... and i needed them within 5. :'( + pretty expensive too and they weren't that high but they wouldve been perfect. /: & flat and everything..) anyway saw these and they arent flat but they have a big platform running all the way to the front, so not that much slope! waay more stabillity! so yeah they are as high as the first heels (!) -we'll see how that goes! but they are wedges and big platform so more
stable ! :)
so yeah. i had 3 prospects.. properly decided now but if i feel different on the night.. (probs won't..) then idk. ill just have to wear the shitty espadrilles.. well they're not shitty but they aren't for prom/a night outttt :l
i just have to walk like, super carefully. tbh i would still be like that even without the ankle ~issue tbh. just not AS careful cause tbqh i am a pretty careless person AT TIMES.
like.. things distract me, okay? like the fact that i've been off this post for like 5+ hours.. and just come back on to finish it off! xD
also, regarding prom..
i got invited to a car.
and i dnw.
mainly because iirc there's two girls and two guys. like, how fucking awkward is that?! they are basically going to be going as couples.. like, they are going to have photos as couples.. probs walk around like.. together and shit. even though they aren't going out.
and i just think i'm gonna look hella awkward... and yeah. like the third wheel, x5, because they will just be .. together. and i won't. i just don't wanna look desperate.. even though maybe i am?
and then i tell myself to fucking get over it and do i want my parents to friggin have to drop me off? no.
so i will just have to deal..
it's this car apparently called a 'daimler' ..yeah i only got invited like a week ago.. and i've googled it but it came up with like 5 diff cars wtf? i think it's mainly like a wedding car, well the kind they usually have.
can't describe it haha.
but maybe without the ribbons? um i hope it's white though. idek why.. just like if it's maroon that's just.. wrong. or like.. just weird..
i think it's pretty cheap not like a limo with drinks and tv, snacks and shit but it's £20 apparently. so £20x4 is like.. £80 so yeah.. not too expensive.
which doesn't actually mean anything but maybe it won't be that nice a car..?
fuck it. it's at least a car that i'm going in with people so i don;'t look completely desperate and sad/lame.
my mom was all for it & enthusiastic as per. -_-
she'll probs tell my dad can't believe she hasn't already tbh and that will be a lecture and a half,
spurring like 2 hours each day till the prom.. omg..
also yeah. the dress is gorg. so haven't got TOO much to worry about.. know which jewellery i'm
wearing.. actually got to find a bracelet.. and just set it all out and stuff. :3
so life is..okay
my mum said i need like.. a project over the summer (:/)
and suggested photography/taking photographs and stuff.
been trying to do it but my camera fucked up yesterday. it turned itself off or i think i did and the lense
stayed out. urgh piece of shit.
ankle has started damn hurting after excersises. that can just jog on..
alsoo, booked summer holiday FINALLY!
we're going to mainland spain, moraira which is a lovely little town which we visited year before
so looking forward to that and plus it's a pretty nice villa with private pool and 3 bedrooooms ;3
means separation from my sister which is good.
also sea views and can;t wait to get into my lovely new summer clothes!
just to let you know i'm not bragging about any of this..
i might start making some of my.... coherent shall we say.. posts public..
even though no one even would read this although i;m sure i have like a few friends from years